Florida 2013!

I'm a little under a week into my Florida trip 2013, and so far it has been a blast! I'm not as "in the clouds" as I was last year, but I've still had a wonderful time. I think I was so happy last year because of the boy I was just starting to date than because of the vacation itself. Or maybe it was just the perfect combination. It's all irrelevant now.

The good news is, my sisters have spent a few days with me here this year so I actually have some pictures to post where I am in them. :) Aubrey was only here for a few days, and I was really, really sad to see her go home, but Hailee is here until next Tuesday.

Hailee and I took the redeye flight here last Tuesday night and arrived Wednesday morning. I brought Levi with me this year, and he did really well on the flights. I wasn't sure what to expect, but he pretty much slept the whole time. Hopefully I'll have similar results on the way back home.

Aubrey and I went parasailing on Thursday. I think that's going to be the highlight of the trip. It was a lot of fun. I really enjoyed my time in the air last year, but this year was even better since she was with me! We plan to try and come do it again next spring. Maybe next year we can get Hailee to go up too. :)

I'll leave you with a few pics I've taken so far. They are uploaded in no particular order because I'm in a bit of a hurry. Enjoy!!

 

Another Entry In My Diary

I entered my 7th Singsnap contest called "Should You Be Famous". I gotta be honest, I don't know if I'm going to place, let alone take 1st. There's some mad talent in this contest. I made it to the top 20, and I think I'll make it to the top 10, but after that . . . ??? Here is the song I entered to try and make it to the top 10:

 

So . . . we'll see what happens. I only have one or two days left of work. I hope they hire me back next winter. I've really enjoyed working with all the adorable babies. I work tomorrow and then Saturday (if they need me on Saturday) and then it's off to Florida next Tuesday.

Tomorrow is my baby sister's 17th birthday. 17. That's crazy. Sometimes I feel like I got stuck at 17, but then I realize that I'm almost 30 and it blows my mind. You have to understand, though . . . 17 is when I first got cancer and when things in my life sort of unravelled.

Remember when I said I wasn't going to do blog posts that resemble diary entries anymore? Yeah . . . I failed. Oh well.

It's Been HOW Long??

Wow. I haven't blogged in ages. When I've had time to write lately I've devoted it all to my book. Or school projects. Mostly school projects.

I had a brutal couple of months there starting back in December, but all is well now. I think I have been focusing too much on all of the aspects of my life that I wish I had better control of (but don't and can't--at least not now) and letting it get me down. I've since come to accept the fact that I need to "unclench". And since coming to that realization things have run soooo much more smoothly.

I've been skiing a bunch of times this winter. I only have two weeks of work left and then it's off to Florida for a month. It's a bitter-sweet situation. On one hand . . . It's Florida. But on the other hand . . . I'm not sure I've done all the skiing I want to do for the season. I plan to head up on Tuesday and possibly tomorrow if I can make time. This week is mid-terms, though, so I'll need to devote a fair amount of my time to my studies. (Which, btw, I'm happy to report my lowest grade in any of my classes is a 95%.)

Let's see . . . what else has happened this year? Hmmm . . . I entered (and won) 6 Singsnap competitions. I was proposed to (and very politely declined). I met an adorable firefighter/EMT whom I hope to date when I get back from Florida. Oh, and I "unclenched" (but you already knew that.) ;)

I finished the Smallville series. (A glorious waste of time.) I actually really enjoyed it, but I hate devoting so much time to television. But now I've seen it and I don't have to watch them ever again if I don't want to. :) (Another waste of time, and not in a glorious way: Safe Haven. Barf.)

Well . . . It's currently almost 11 pm and I am itching to get back to reading my book. I have been plowing through books lately. This is my 9th one already this year (not including my books for school). The one I'm reading now is called Two Graves. It's the 3rd book in the final Pendergast trilogy by Child and Preston. In fact, it's the last Pendergast book in the entire series. I've enjoyed them. Perhaps they aren't going down in history as my absolute most favorite reads, but I have to admit that I've grown quite fond of our albino super agent. I'll be sad to see his story end, I think.

Alright, folks. There you have it. That's what's new and exciting in my world. I fully intend to get back to blogging more once I hit Florida, but I think I'm going to revert back to my old style of blogging (the more appropriate way to blog). You guys remember when my blogs used to be about something other than my life, right? Remember? It used to be at least a little amusing and witty. My blog has since become a public diary that, for some reason, people want to read. Well . . . have at it, but just be warned that I intend to try and steer away from that in the future.

Good-night, all.

Me and the American Idol Contestant

In case any of you were wondering, I got the job at Kid's Club. (Woot!) School has started and is going great so far. I've managed to stay ahead. Let's hope I can keep it up. I'm headed to Florida the end of March through the end of April and I'd really like to not have too much homework. If I can get ahead enough in my government class then I should only have English to really worry about.

I've been watching episodes of Smallville lately. (I think I've mentioned that before.) Is it weird that I like Lex Luthor better than Clark Kent? Tom Welling is super sexy, but Clark Kent is a giant drama queen. Lex may be evil, but he's very composed. I'm super attracted to that.

Things are going much smoother for me lately. I still have insomnia going on, but my stress levels are much reduced, and I'm feeling much happier about life. Haha. Speaking of stress, I need to hit up my government book and study before my quiz.

Here are a couple of songs that I did with a girl who was on American Idol last year. Her name is Pam Poullard and she has a facebook page if anyone is interested in looking her up. I don't know how far she made it before getting eliminated, but she still made it and that's pretty epic! In both of these songs I am the second singer. In the "Believe" song, I take the high part when we do a duet. Enjoy!

 

Quick Update

My world has been so outrageously crazy lately. I'm starting to think that insomnia is going to be an annual thing for me . . . As I recall, I suffered insomnia this time last year, too. Only, last year I was my own boss, so it wasn't really a big deal. This year I'm not so lucky. I'm actually trying to switch from housekeeping over to the Kid's Club up at Targhee. I think that would be a better fit for me while I go through my little sleep deprivation cycle. Wish me luck! I find out on Saturday if it's a go or not.

The Mattsons recently got me hooked on the Smallville series. I'll be honest, I hated the first season. I thought it was cheesy and ridiculous in every way, but it was something to do to pass the time away on those nights that I couldn't get a wink of sleep. I would have quit watching them altogether, but Sophie kept assuring me that they get better and that by season 2 I'd really enjoy it. She was sort of right. I still didn't love season 2. At least, not until the very end. Now I'm hooked. I actually just forked out $50 to own the first half of the series. Once I start something, I sort of have to see it through. And that includes TV shows, unfortunately. So now I'm waiting for season 3 to get here so I can see what's up. I do have to admit that Tom Welling is an incredibly good looking individual.

School starts in 10 days. Yikes. I'm getting a little nervous. I will only be working on the weekends, though, so that should give me plenty of time to get my schoolwork done.

Can you believe I still haven't been skiing yet?? Yeah, me neither! I need to hurry and hit those slopes!

Spanglish?

I'm thinking that it's time for a haircut. I actually tucked my hair into my pants while getting dressed today. My hair is toooo long. My little sister is going to freak out, but I really need to get rid of a few inches.

I. am. exhausted. Lately it seems like all I do is "go, go, go". I know I have free time, but it doesn't feel like I do. I've been spending too much time stressing. I can't wait until school starts. I think that's weighing heavily on my mind. Who knows, maybe I'll live to regret those words. I hope and pray that having class doesn't add too much stress!

You may or may not remember a post I wrote about a year ago when I said there was this one boy that I don't think I'll ever fully get over. Well . . . I had a dream about him last night. It's crazy . . . He hasn't been a part of my life since high school, but I still think about him sometimes. First love, maybe? Who knows .  . .

I've also been thinking about my ex a lot lately. (Since he kicked me out on Christmas Eve, this time of year tends to spark random memories of him.) I still remember the moment I first new without a single doubt that he was cheating on me. The crazy thing is, that moment came before we were married . . . and I still married him. Ugh. *facepalm. The moment I am referring to came after he had left for the Navy. I had these little feelings and intuitions that he was cheating, but zero proof. None whatsoever. Until, that is, the day that he told me he and his Navy buddy, Andy, were going to go see a movie in theatres. What movie?

Spanglish.

Spanglish?

Either you two are knocking boots . . . or you are taking women. Am I right? (I was right.)

I don't know why I ever married that boy. I cared a whole lot about him, but our whole relationship was a disaster. An unhealthy, chaotic disaster. Right from the beginning.

Anyway, I really need to hit the sheets now. Judging by the paleness of my face, I'm going to say I'm coming down with something. Good night, all.

Ahhhhhhhh!!!!!

I have been so stressed out that I am having the strangest nightmares almost every night. I can't remember all of them (thank heavens), but there are a couple that have stuck. Two nights ago I dreamt that I had two babies, a little girl and a little boy. Both were redheads even though I knew their father to be a dark brunette. I didn't want kids (their dad wasn't around), so I gave them to some family friends. They named them Aiden and Pearl, and I was PISSED! I hated those names! And then I wanted them back and couldn't have them! I know it sounds silly, but it was one of those dreams that you feel more than anything. It woke me up totally depressed.

Last night I dreamt that I was giving out free lift tickets to Targhee and I was so worried and stressed that I'd get caught. (Ummm . . . ??? NOOO idea where that idea came from. I'm not about to scam my own place of employment.) Anyway, I let my best friend and her family in and she ended up shooting someone and killing them. I saw her a few minutes later fleeing the scene with her crying children, telling them not to be afraid, that mommy and daddy aren't "bad people". (They really aren't. Again -- NOOOO idea where this is coming from.) Then I was worried that they'd tie me to the scene as an accessory since I was the one who gave her the lift tickets. It was horrible!!

This morning I woke up to find that my dvd player isn't working, so I can't do my workout. That alone stresses me out to the point of tears (nearly, anyway). If I don't get a good workout in before work, I lose steam less than halfway through the day. I'm very worried, stressed and pissed about it. And I agreed to work tomorrow (my only day off), so I really screwed myself over. I've been feeling so negative for a few weeks now. I don't know what to blame it on. The weather? Work? School? Maybe a little bit of all of those . . . ? All I know is that I need to get it together soon. I've been over stressed, over worked, and over eating for too long now!!